This journey has taken me to this place, and I wonder "how can I help others when I can't help myself?" I have been fed by ravens, as Elijah (1 Kings 17:6). And now am using oil in my house, as instructed by Elisha to the widow(2 Kings 4). I still search for income and watch for God's work in my life. So what does it all mean? You can not give up. Stay the journey.