There will times in your life that the downpour of trouble, pain, and heartache will flow. And then it will stop. Or you will grow out of it. Even in the times of great downpours remember, they do not last always. And even with the threat of downpour your umbrella will keep you dry.
Can I go on? Holy Spirit will guide you though the storms - oh you know that. Then apply it. Why do you get so caught up with what may happen? It may not happen the way you think. No, it never happens the way you think. With the Word implanted in your heart and Holy Spirit guiding you are indeed covered.
Funny thing about rain - it is needed and usually washes away stuff. Your downpours may be ways of washing away your stupid stuff. Don't know, but I do know who does know. Please don't waste another minute of "what if"? Not if you accept Divine guidance. Go ahead, try it. enough for now.