Thomas Merton set you up. I asked, "what do you hope to discover?" Have you thought about it? Let me rephrase it. You really do not need to decide what you want to discover. All you need to do is pray. Let that communion with God be the discovery. It is the entrance to discovery. For too long you have been the "one to make it happen." Not this time. The excitement in prayer is that you cannot control the discovery. You can release distractions. They mean you no good. They keep you in a fog of confusion, despair, doubt. Let them go. Tell them to "shhh."
I'm excited for you. Enter in. Just go. As you go, hold on to what you discover. enough for now.