Hang On

I have been hanging on . . . Holding on . . . Resting in.  Illness will cause you to regroup. I am now in the regrouping. I had to be still in order to heal.  But then we must be still in order to hear, to folllow.  It is sad that illness can take us out- and then we will listen. So use your precious time before you get ill to take time to hear.  

God has so much more for you.  Don't miss it by trying to get what you feel life has for you. I des not compare to what God has.  Enjoy the new leg of your journey. Each day is a new day! enough for now.

Celebrate!!!

Blessings of celebration! Blessings of realizing that you have something to celebrate. Blessings of basking in God's love for you. That is what this season is about-to celebrate the love of God through the gift of Jesus. It is because of that gift that we have so much to celebrate.  Oh my goodness - oh how much He loves us. 

Celebrate the breaking of chains that held you bound. Oh yes. All because of God's love, Jesus' obedience to God, Holy Spirit's guidance. All for you. Give your time to celebrating Jesus and His birth. Jesus, our liberator redeemer. All for you God sent Jesus to save, secure, set you up for a new walk, deeper realization, hope, faith.  Celebrate!  Happy birthday Jesus! enough for now.

I Rode Eleven Miles

Oh how I have missed you. I have been extremely busy and then ill. As I was being still I was encouraged by an accomplishment this summer. I rode a bike 11 miles as my son and his wife ran. Although I loved riding bikes when younger, I had not ridden for at least 30 years.  And I rode a bike for eleven miles.

My legs cramped and I rode though the cramps and into the next cramps. I fell, got up limped for a minute and got back on the bike, and rode 11 miles. When I was done, everything cramped all night; yet, I rode 11 miles. The next morning I preached at a new church two and a half hours away. I hurt until I got up, and hurt when I was done. But I rode 11 miles. 

I have a dark spot still on my leg where I fell. But I rode 11 miles. Yes, I am encouraged. What is it that you have not done, but want to try?  Go ahead- try it.  Oh I know you can- Be encouraged that you can do so much more than you know.  And it is all introduced by this season, the birth of The One who liberated us from fear, doubt, oh, yeah, all sins.  Celebrate with me the love of One that is so absolutely perfect and awesome and revealing and real. Celebrate with me your life, because of His life.  You can!  I did and will do more. You can because He did.  I rode 11 miles.  He was born to save us. Celebrate His birth!

Stay

The journey gets rough at times. Stay on the journey. Stay focused. Stay alert.  You are not alone. enough for now.

You are Blessed

Okay, you have heard this before. Please hear with a spiritual ear. Do you know how blessed you are? Oh do you really?  You didn't get that job, that promotion; your health is not as great - still do you know how blessed you are? Don't compare to what if, but get on the high side of God's love an provision.  You are blessed.  In spite of whatever.  You are blessed.  Allow that to sink in.  enough for now.

Be Free

One of the issues that can cause great pain is being subjected to choices others make.  Oh yes it can, but it should not be so.  Families suffer many times because of this. You know, someone is on drugs and everyone close suffers.  Or someone makes unwise decisions and others suffer. It is indeed a hard thing to separate, yet it is possible.  Love is most important, yet love may cause us to take on what does not belong to us.  We are responsible for self, we are accountable to others. Hold on to that.  allow yourself release from the chokehold you have had on yourself. enough for now.

Just Go

Thomas Merton set you up. I asked, "what do you hope to discover?"  Have you thought about it?  Let me rephrase it. You really do not need to decide what you want to discover.  All you need to do is pray.  Let that communion with God be the discovery. It is the entrance to discovery.  For too long you have been the "one to make it happen." Not this time. The excitement in prayer is that you cannot control the discovery.  You can release distractions. They mean you no good.  They keep you in a fog of confusion, despair, doubt. Let them go. Tell them to "shhh." 

I'm excited for you.  Enter in. Just go. As you go, hold on to what you discover. enough for now.

Prayer Discovery

This is from Thomas Merton near the end of his life:

"In prayer we discover what we already have. You start from where you are and you deepen what your already have, and you realize you are already there. We already have everything but we don't know it and don't experience it. Everything has been given to us in Christ. All we need is to experience what we already possess."

What will you discover? enough for now.

Thanksgiving

Blessings of love, family, and peace in spite of the foolishness around you, placed on you, or dumped on you.  You are stronger than that, you are better than that. Embrace your community- family, extended family, friends - and hold on to the joy that only God gives. In spite of stupidity- whether yours or another's, God still is, and God still is able, oh yes. Blessings of giving thanks, now and going forward. Shalom! enough for now.

Giving Thanks

Yes, we are in the season for giving thanks.  What are you thankful for?  Look at it.  There should be so many things. You are loved. You  have the ability to change.  You can walk in your healing. You can walk in your healing.  Let others love you.  Allow yourself to love God and to loved by God.  Experience God's delight in you.  Walk out of the silly real stuff that holds you back. Step into the very real life that has been prepared for you.  Get on your journey, and explore all that God has for you. That is reason to give thanks.  Blessings. enough for now.

Rest

Rest is allowed, even in dancing. Sometimes you must rest, you must regroup. You are invited into God's rest. TODAY. Take long deep breaths. Breathe out anxiety, breathe in peace. Breathe out tiredness, breathe in clarity. Breathe out worry, breathe in peace. Breathe out whatever is causing stress, breathe in peace. Wait, hear, listen. Rest. TODAY. You can dance later, you will dance again. Watch what God is doing in your life. enough for now.

Learn the Dance

Learn the dance. I told you how I learned. That is how I taught liturgical dance to my dance ministry. My dancers had basics. They had to get the steps correct. It is so sad when dancers are looking at other dancers to make sure they are correct. My dancers had to know the steps. Many times we discussed scripture that was the foundation of the dance. Our rehearsals were tight and sometimes young people don't appreciate 'tight.' They worked hard, many times rolling their eyes at me.

The dancers knew their positions, they knew their steps.  Then they were free to dance for the Lord. Oh my goodness! As they danced, those viewing were invited into the worship through their dance. Oh my goodness! Yes, we were all transformed. They learned the dance. You learn the dance by getting the basics first. Get what you are to do, and at the proper time - you move, you flow, you dance your dance- all because you learned the basics and were not afraid to dance. enough for now.

Dance

In life, just like dance, you must learn the basics. Yes, maybe you are one that did not have nurturing, teaching parents to teach you the basics. Your life is not over. You don't need to give up or to overcompensate for what did not happen. It is not too late. Get the basics. God created you to dance, to live. And yes, He is indeed your dance partner, like my father was for me.

Just like I had my dancers to get the steps, they knew that their audience was not the people, but God. And they danced for God. People viewing worshiped collectively, and were blessed.  Sometimes, even rehearsals were worship events. Don't you love it?

You have your basic instruction and encouragement in the Bible. You really do. Find a spiritual director that can aid in your spiritual transformation, one that can show you the steps. The Creator so created you that as you get the basics, you can create new dances- same basics, new dances. On this journey no one dances the same way, but we all move in tune with Holy Spirit's guidance. Our lives can become worship, both individually and collectively, as we dance. We hear Holy Spirit's guidance, we can follow God's will, we can giggle with the love of Jesus. We dance. Go ahead, oh please try it. It is an awesome journey of dancing. Learn the basics, learn the dance, dance. enough for now.

Dance Basics

I just had a good conversation with a mentee. In sharing with how I learned to work in spite of my shortcomings, I shared with her about how I learned to dance.  Okay, let me be clear- we all have strengths and weaknesses.  We should walk in our strengths and strengthen our weaknesses. The first way in strengthening is to recognize it is a weakness. We don't stay looking at where we fall, we get up and go again.  If we all stayed where we were with our faults we would never move more into what God has for us.

My father taught me how to dance. I watched as he placed his feet and then I progressed into dancing with him (yeah after stepping a few times on his feet).  When I got the basics, I could dance around the room, dance with the bedposts.  When I got older there were new dances to learn that Daddy could not teach me.  But I had the basics.  She replied was that she had to learn the dance. You have to learn the dance. enough for now.

Get Up

Feel it.  Go ahead.  Try it on.  How does it fit?  How does it feel to know that you are sustained by God?  It like that all things plan.  It all works together for good.  Hear me.  It gets hard at times, but it is not done.  There is so much available and moving right now on your behalf.  Do not let the enemy take another dream from you. Get your bearing and dream, grow, move, rearrange.  Get up . . . get going; even if in your going you are still, let it be the stillness that God ordains for you.  Otherwise, it is not your stillness, but the enemy killing you softly with his song.  Get up. enough for now.

Wake Up

TODAY!  Yes . . . This is the day! I woke up -  today.  No more I slumber wondering what could have been, what could have happened.  But today- I awakened to the promises of this day! Oh my goodness.  Yesterday and all of its crap is gone. Today is my gift from God -for new mercies. TODAY.  My promises - my hope - my dreams all realized today.  that feels good.  Oh please recognize it.

I read a quote from my calendar; which was confirmation on how I felt this morning.  "When God ordains, He sustains."  Ohhhhhh yes God does . . .yes sir. . . Oh yes.  Let that permeate your mind, your heart.  Yes.  WAKE UP.

This is your day!  WAKE UP to what God has for you - today. Enjoy the peace, the love, the presence of God in your life today. enough for now.

Because of who you are.

Hang in there. Hold on . . . help is on the way. Just breathe. Periodically foolish people come into your life. Foolish, because they don't know who they are dealing with. They have no clue who you are. And yes, they are at times so irritating, even when you try to aid them.  That is all they are- an irritation. Don't let foolish people back you into foolish situations. You are better than that.  When the fog clears you will still be standing. Not because of what you can do- because of who you are. Because of who you belong to - you are a royal priesthood. Don't forget it. enough for now.

Somethng about that Name

Oh how sweet the name of Jesus. No, really it is.  When we can hold to that precious name there is so much peace. There is rest, serenity, hope in the name of Jesus.  There is a release of anxiety, of disturbance, of worry in the name of Jesus.  Go ahead call Him- Jesus . . . Jesus . . . Jesus. Call His name until you feel it.  Allow the realness of His name wash away the temporal worries, fear.  While so many thing do happen to us, we really face them with no fear with Jesus.  Try Him. enough for now.

Real Peace

As I drove home yesterday I felt strangely and wonderfully lifted. Had anything changed in my circumstance? No. Did I win- anything? No. Well what was it? Peace, the indescribable shalom of God. The peace that finds itself in Truth. Peace. I bless you with peace today. Feel it. Walk in it.  Marvel at how you feel.  Giggle and then whisper thanks to God. enough for now.

Walk in the Light

You have turned on the light.  Now walk in it. "Walk in the light, beautiful light. Come where the dew drops of mercy shine bright.  Shine all around me by day and by night, Jesus the light of the world."  You walk in the light by recognizing the lies for what they are and releasing them to walk with truth.  Go ahead, stroll, strut, skip, giggle when you walk, let the truth flow into and from your heart.  enough for now.

Call His Name

Turn the light on.  Yeah I know, you tried to do that. But even when you were little and you knew all you had to so was turn the light on, you were too afraid to get out the bed, or reach your arms out from the cover. Now, it's more about you.  Sometimes your problem is that you are trying to do it yourself.  You can't. You can only do so with guidance from Holy Sprit. 

When you find yourself twirling the tornado/hurricane of emotional upheaval, call Jesus.  Just say His name - Jesus.  say it again - Jesus.  Say it again - Jesus.  Call His name until you can breathe.  Call His name until you stop twirling.  When Peter got out the boat and was walking on water, he became distracted by the winds and waves.  He took his eyes off Jesus and began to sink.  Oh but, when he called Jesus. . . Just like that.  Take some time and read that passage in Matthew 14:22-32. 

Stop the twirling. Call His name.  enough for now.

Turn the Light On

Ohhhh how easy it is to get caught up with things that cause disruption in our lives.  You know, those things that "go bump in the night." Do you remember those things that frightened you when you were younger.  The scary shadows that went away when you turned the light on.  Those things still cause fear, worry, doubt - they are now adult things that cause you fear, worry, doubt. They grew up as you grew up.

Does it mean that those disruptive things are not real? Oh no, they are real; yet they are disruptions and when  you can recognize the difference between real and disruptions you can do better.  So how do you recognize?  It's all disruptive if it takes you off your path.  There are so many little things that cause emotional upheaval- just like that.  And many times we flow right with it. 

You know, those things that get us twirling in our own little tornadoes/hurricanes.  We are whirling
not knowing when we will land.  You know, whether it is health, finances, loss of love, loss of  anything.  Those will set us off. Oh I know them.  My hurricanes may not be like your but they are the same disruptive source- to get you off track, off the path, to get you to abort, to get you to forget. 

But- we don't have to stay in that flow of emotional upheaval  No,  we don't.  Turn the light on.
enough for now.

Joy

Joy.  Joy.  Joy, where does it comes from?  Peace.  Seek peace, the shalom of God.  Let go and watch what God is doing. enough for now.

Testimony

Do you really know how much time you spend looking at or talking about what has been done to you? Don't get me wrong.  Yes, there are times when you do tell what has happened but it is the 'whole tell'.  You tell what was done, but then what God did.  That's a testimony!  The world need more testimonies.  People are encouraged with testimonies. Don't waste time talking about what went wrong.  Spend time wisely talking about what went right out of the wrong.

This has another level than just encouraging community. It encourages you to contemplate more, to see toward the final. It encourages you to watch what God is doing in your life.  Go ahead try it.  Give it one month at first, your thanks will be more positive, your joy will flow.  enough for now.

Contemplating

As this month ends I find myself quietly contemplating.  I have listened to crazy stuff from craziness and marveled that I no longer answer to craziness.  You see, I used to remark that "they don't know who they are messing with."  The truth is that I know who I am, and it matters not what anyone else understands.

Yes, that is how you should respond, especially when you know who you are.

Quietly contemplating. . .  Why did I work so hard to help others to succeed?  Why did I put others ahead of self?  Why did I push my work aside to help another?  Hmmm.  And the sad part -traditionally- is that there was no one who would do the same for me.  Again- understanding that
this is my time, for finishing my stuff, for working for me.  This is my time realizing my value. 

How many times have you set  your goals aside to promote another?  You are indeed a precious person, one that God loves.   Precious person, you don't need approval from another, you don't need to hide from your life- it is special. Walk in what God has for you.  Watch what God is doing in your life.  enough for now.

Each Day

A new day.  It really does not matter what you are going through.  It is a new day.  A new moment to find yourself. An awesome chance to accept Holy Spirit's guide.  A new opportunity to follow God's will for your life.  It is a new day.  Oh please do not miss this day, this chance, this opportunity to see what God has in store for you TODAY.  Each day, new mercies I see. each day.  enough for now.

Waiting

Waiting wears you out, doesn't it?  Look at how much waiting we actually do.  And since, most of the time, waiting is irritating, we absorb that irritation.  And we become instantly irritated when we realize that we must wait - on anything.  Think about it.  I know I have been there. 

The sad part about it is that we transfer that irritation while waiting on God. Yes we do. We try to work ahead of God.  We try to 'make it happen'.  Oh but it does not work like that.  We hear a little of what God has said and we run with it.  And we find that we fail.  Wait on God.  Whew! Wait on God.  Come on, say it . . . now wait.  enough for now.

Smile

Sometimes it is refreshing to be with like minded people. It does not mean that you know them but that you can relate.  Have you ever been there?  

In a society where people are becoming less communicative it is refreshing to chat about whatever without it being "forced." In my case it was in Zoup and we actually had conversations about the offerings of soup.  Ah such refreshing fun.   

Wait on the place of chat with strangers for you.  Enjoy it and keep on going.  It is a part of that smile and receive a smile. enough for now.

Learn to Depend Upon the Right One

Have you noticed how much you depend on others?  Yes, it is good to be in community, however the reasons you have for depending on others may be a little twisted.  Take time today to examine who you depend upon, and why.  I've heard too many horror stories on people depending on another and they were terribly disappointed.  You will always be disappointed if you depend solely on another human. That's how it is. It is not as bad as you may think if you recognize the roles we have. We are responsible for self and accountable for others. 

Let me get you started.  You cannot depend upon anyone else for your happiness,your peace.  That peace comes from depending totally upon God. Go ahead, try Him. You will be pleasantly surprised. enough for now.

Don't get Lost

How often do we allow ourselves to be pulled into arguments with ourselves about ourselves. You know -trying to find out how and why you are doing what you are doing. Or why you did what you did. Oh but when you get still, you realize that what you are fighting is absolutely not a thing.  And you find that you have wasted so much time - so much time.  It is a distraction caused by lies that have thrown you off.  Don't allow yourself to waste not another minute.  Get still and breathe.  Be still until you receive clarity from Holy Spirit - direction - guidance.  And then follow. enough for now.

Oh How Many Times

How many? How many times?  How many times do we turn from God to follow our own agenda?  It could be something as simple as not trusting what God has said. How many times?  Oh ask yourself, Lord, is it me?  The enemy will trap you with lies, and lies that your believe will mess you up. Yes they will.  If God has said it, then hold on and move toward it.  Go ahead, try Him.  enough for now.

Cherish it All

What is it?  Go ahead, what is it?  What is your testimony?  I had an interesting conversation with someone that had not seen enough change.  But then I've seen that play out during testimonies in some churches. You can see how people are trying to find their  biggest testimony.  And then there are those who give "He woke me up this morning."  Oh yes God did.  Do you know that God is still rearranging?  Still changing you? He changes as He sees fit.  You are being transformed constantly.  If your change, your transformation appears to be minimal, it is still change. 

Never be afraid to tell what you know about your transformation.  Never worry that it sounds too small.  Each step in your transformation is a step toward your freedom.  Cherish it all! enough for now.

Don't Believe the Hype

I do not believe the sensationalism of the media.  They get caught up on one thing and not enough on another.  It is downright pathetic.  The world allows for so many distractions from what may be real.  Please don't loose your focus.  Listen to Holy Spirit, and then follow. enough for now.

Language

I was listening to the musicians practice and as they have different notes that I very vaguely remember I realized it was their language.  Everything has a language and to effectively communicate you need to know the language. 

While we understand that some things cross language barriers, like a smile; it is good to always keep that close. 

I think the smile is God's gift to us to come together.  And when we recognize that a smile erases barriers we can use that same smile to enter into communication with God.  We use His love language to hear, speak, rest, realize more His love.  Smile and watch.  enough for now.

This is Your Day

September 11 is the beckoning call for change for Americans, the call for remembrance.  And it that dreaded day will forever be etched in our minds.  Yesterday many did so much to commemorate- to remember- to recognize.  And yes - we should.

Allow me to take it to a different level.  What is your day- your moment of reckoning- of remembering- of commemorating- for your self? What is the moment that changes you forever- that starts you on a new journey?  When did you say "enough" "no more" "not again"?  When did you recognize just how precious your life?  When did you take steps to renew, to recoup, to resolve, to rejuvenate?

Could it be, that day, that moment for you is right now? God's mercies are new everyday.  Everyday we have a chance to do it differently.  Take it today. enough for now.

Make a Difference

I watch young people that grew up with me in different ministries as they excel in their life's calling; and I smile.  I smile when I watch my son teaching his sons, loving on them and guiding them; when I watch my niece teaching her daughter, giggling as she grows.  I smile when I golf with my nephew, and I listen to his views,  I smile.  Yes, the care grows on.  It really does.  And to realize that in different ways I had a hand in their growth.

In the spirit of Mbutu, "I am because we are," we are not in this world alone and we must make every effort to positively connect to another, not just in your family, but in the larger family.  We are community and love really should be our theme.  We should share what we know and encourage others to spiritually grow.   After all, someone cared for you.  Someone prayed for you.  Sometimes it is not easy, I agree, but you probably were not easy for someone either.

Take time today to make a difference in someones life.  How?  Oh so many ways, start with a call, a smile, a prayer, encouragement.  So many ways to love, to nurture, to show real care.  Blessings on each of you as you make a difference, and as you recognize that yes, yes you did; you made a difference.  enough for now.

Keep Running

I marvel at how God uses my son.  My son just finished a half-iron.  He said he did not train as he did for his first half-iron. What he discovered was he time was only fifteen minutes more than the first half-iron.  He said his body memory kicked in to do what was possible.  I think that was the word - body memory. You see, he had trained so much that his body still remembered what to do in the same situation.

Hmm.  "Train up a child in the way he/she should go; even when he/she is old he/she will not depart from it" (Prov. 22:6).  or "I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you" Ps. 119:11 NIV).  Just as the body can be trained and remembers; the heart must be trained and will remember.  I thought that was really cool. 

Find one, find a scripture, old on to it, stand on it, ponder it, and when you need it, it will be available.  Hold on what you see God doing in your life, and when you need it, you will remember it.  Run on, hold on, help is indeed on the way. enough for now.

Stay in the Fire

I was boiling two eggs yesterday and, after a shorter time than I thought normal, one of the eggs cracked open.  I thought it was odd that they were ready so soon; nevertheless, I took them out. As I peeled the cracked egg I realized that although the egg white was ready the yolk felt soft.  I could change the shape of the egg.  Hmm.  So I cut it and sure enough, the yolk was soft and gooey, not solid.  The other egg was similar, but not as gooey. Although the egg had cracked, it was not ready. I had taken it out of the fire too soon.

This morning Holy Spirit showed me that some people who are in ministry are like that egg. They look like, act like, talk like they are ready; but their heart for ministry has not quite solidified for the things of God.  They read, yes, even copied the ways of others, may have spent time with God, but still not quite ready.  They need more time in the fire. 

This may not pertain to you, but sometimes we all rush into something that we think we can handle.  So that does pertain to you. It does not mean we can't handle it, it means we need more time. More time in the fire, more time with the fire of Holy Spirit. More time solidifying ourselves for what God has.  If you are not solid, the world will change your shape.  You will succumb. Stay in the fire. enough for now.

Let it Go!

Let it go!  Two clients had similar breakthroughs yesterday.  I love how God frees us to live fuller lives. The breakthroughs? Hatred of their mothers.  Now they are on the way to healing.

Yes,  hatred will mess you up, but hatred of someone significant is detrimental because "you are not supposed to feel like that."  If that is how you feel- it is how you feel, and 'stuffing' your feelings only hurts you. So what do you do?  Let it go! How?  Glad you asked.

First, recognize the truth, then speak it out.  In this case, you hate _______ because _________.  And on and on.  As you speak it, allow yourself the freedom to tell God what you feel. Don't make it cute, make it as raw as you feel.  God can handle it.  Oh you know what to do.  You do it when you tell someone close about what you feel. It's called venting.  You vent with another person, and when you are done, you feel good.  The sad part is the person feels dumped on.  Lamenting allows you really vent to God.  He can handle it, and you can't afford not to do it.

Why?  Healing starts at the 'feeling' level.  When you are done lamenting. Then rest in that peace.  Rest right there.  Listen to Holy Spirit's guidance.  Feel that release, from so many aspects of your life.  When it is all out, you can bless that person.  We will talk more about that later.

I bless you with hearing from Holy Spirit, I silence the voice of the enemy, I silence your voice.  Rest in the peace of release.  Let it go!

Oh yeah, today is my middle grandson's 16 birthday.  Happy Birthday Trey!  enough for now.

Get Real

It is still hot. I am still waiting for a service call that was to be from 8a-1p.  At 1:50p I got a call, the person was on a job and had two other jobs before me.  Yes, unfortunately, I lost it.  There are so many issues - but the main one is how people are not respectful of other's time.  Then I had a different issue, this one -someone was not respectful of my time, nor me.  I got over it, and now am basking in peace.  No, nothing has changed- but you see- if I stay in the 'upset' place it just uses my energy and time.  God did not create me to misuse my time.  That would be me being disrespectful of what God has given me.  See how that works?  Take time, are you being respectful of the awesome time you had been given?  Then start now.  Get real with what is real, your life is precious. enough for now.

Can you Stand the Heat?

The heat is rather rough. I don't mean outside, but inside. The air went out yesterday and won't be repaired until tomorrow. Oh my goodness, it is sweltering!  Why, the temperature outside will be 93 degrees with high humidity, and inside it is 81 degrees. Yeah, I said 81 degrees.  It is all relative.  I have worked in temperatures higher than 81 degrees.  Many people work and play in temperatures hotter. 

Here is the crazy part. I had planned on writing all day Labor day.  I didn't.  I played games and watched movies in order to be still, because it was hot.  I could have left home and rode somewhere to get cool, but I didn't, because I was drained, because it was hot.  How strange is that?  At any moment I could have the heat to get relief, but didn't.  How many times do we attempt to get away from what takes our energy, our mental strength, when all we have to do is leave?  But we don't leave and we stay there complaining about our "lot" whatever the "lot" is, how many times? 

You did not get the worst "lot" in life.  You do have way out. You are only stuck in your mind. There is always a way out, through, above, around, underneath, - always.  Don't believe the lies that you are stuck, you can't get out, you will never live free, you will never be more, you will never make it, . . . you get it.  They are all lies. There is a way. Oh you may not see it, but I promise it is there. I promise because it has been promised and it possible through Holy Spirit, our paraclete, who walks alongside, guiding us through, above, around, underneath. 

Yeah, it's hot but now I can handle it.  This is a minor thing only causing distractions for me. What are your distractions? What are the lies?  There is a way.  Shift your focus from your problems to The Solution. Watch what God is doing. enough for now.

New Adventure

Through the early morning mist I'm watching a deer eat.  I thought back to last night as people gathered at a retreat center. 

I laughed as I chatted with some women who had never been to the country.  I mean gravel roads and miles of beautiful trees lining the way.  When the road ended they thought GPS was wrong.  And their phone signal went in and out. (I could get out but Siri refused to talk to me). We told  this was a retreat center.  One said she would be alright when she got to her room and got WIFI. You know I hollered.  No WIFi.  

To retreat. To get get away- unplug- unwind.  To hear what God is saying to you.  Many times you will get to a different road.  It does not mean the journey ends.  It means the adventure begins.  Blessings on your new adventure. enough for now.

Your Lies Will Mess You Up

Your lies will mess you up.  The ones you tell, the one you believe.  Come one, the one you tell?  You know that already.  My mother used to say, "Your lies will find you out."  Your lies affect your integrity and your health.  You have to remember too much extra data, and yes, could affect your health.  Yes, even what you believe to be "little" lies.  You have heard them, when asked about something, either, "I didn't say that," or "I don't remember."  Your lies will mess you up.  I have seen a few people messed up in their lies by their lies. Work on them. Ask Holy Spirit to guide your thoughts, your words, your actions.  We all need to be guided, it is a part of our journey

Okay, you have had a few days to  think about lies you have believed and acted upon.  If  you recognize they are not true, yet are not sure of the truth, take one lie (allow Holy Spirit to point to one).  Then ask Jesus what is the truth.  You see when you hear the Truth from The Truth then you can hold on to that.  And when ever you hear the lie - you can say "No!" Soon you will no longer hear that lie.  Do that for any untruth and you will be able to walk freer  enough for now.

Wrong Moves

Have you ever signed up for one thing only find out it was changed to something else?  UGH! Anyway. It is a real pain.  Hmm. I suppose the best thing is to not sign up.  Be careful with your information and with what you think you see.  Try to get the best information possible.  People lie so freely and quickly.  Life is somewhat like moves on a chessboard.  So how can you get through?  Listen to guidance. enough for now.

Don't Look Back

I'm stuck. I'm stuck because you are stuck. Do you know how many people are stuck in messes because of the lies they believe?  They thought it was truth and walked in it- but when they found that it was not truth but a lie- then it became a problem.  You see, it is not so much that you finally learn the truth, it is a problem when you continue to look back toward the lie.  It is a little like being set free from the matrix and not liking the real thing, but wanting to be back in the matrix.  Come one.  As you become free from the lies then walk and don't look back.  enough for now.

Get Up

There is something about rising early. You are up before the world gets started. There is a sense that you have a chance to get it done, whatever your "it" is. It gives you a space for imagining the greatness of the day. It gives you an opportunity to recognize the new mercies.

Life is so short. When you think about it- it is so short.  Enjoy each day that you are given.  Enjoy a release of stupid stuff that means not a thing. Enjoy the excitement of your journey.  Yes, there is an excitement there. Come on. You watch movies that are full of thrills and chills, yet you don't turn away when the going gets tough for hero/heroine.  You are your hero/heroine.  The going does get tough, bad news does happen, sadness will come, lost is real- BUT it does not last always.  God's joy and peace is very real. This is your journey. With the roadmap in hand and your GPS (God's Personal Sketch) for you, you will make it.  (Do you like that GPS? Holy Spirit just gave it to me. cool). 

Get up. Get ready to receive your blessing each day. enough for now.

Yield not

Contracts appear to be broken so easily.  Covenants mean nothing.  Leaders are confused on their roles and lead so many hurting people into wasted places.  And this is the church.  No, it is nothing like Jesus modeled.  I'm pretty sure on this 'wasted places' because look at us, look at the church, look at U.S., look at the church in U.S. So, since I cannot fix "us" or "U.S" I can yield to the work on me.  Won't you join me in yielding to the working on your "me" on you?  What is real?  What is not real?  What is true? What is not true?  Again I say, welcome to the journey.  enough for now.

Truth, not Lies

What lie or lies have your discovered?  The strange thing about some lies is that they have been truth for you until you recognized they were lies.  So many people are living with so many lies.  Some they were told and some they have believed themselves. How about you?  These lies have helped shape your view of so many things. 

So many people everyday are so engulfed in their lies that it is hard for them to see truth or accept truth. So they make what looks like truth, but that is a lie.  And they lie- about anything and everything. They don't have to live that way.  You don't have to live that way either.

Jesus' work on the cross solidified His truth for our lives.  We can live free of lies.

If you have recognized what you feel is not truth then ask Holy Spirit to show you the truth.  Here is the crazy part- we were not meant to live our lives all "lied out." Can you see how much peace is there for you without the lies? Let's start with just one lie.  Allow Holy Spirit to guide you.  Wait until you hear the truth from Holy Spirit.  When you hear it, are you ready to accept it?  Great.  Hold on to the truth, and when you hear the lie, you can stand on truth.  It takes a minute, but it is on the way to your healing. 

May I help you?  Fear is a big lie, and you can see how fear plays out in so many ways: Fear of failure, fear of people that don't look like you, fear of dogs, fear of being found out, fear of your manhood/womanhood.  I could go on and on, I've heard so many unfounded fears yet they are very real to that person.  I know it is a lie, "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline" (2 Tim.1:7NIV).  Live. Live in God's truth for your life. enough for now.
   

What is the Pause?

Okay, what did you find out about your pause?  Actually, it can happen so quickly and always looks as if it is the right thing to do.  My day changed yesterday right after writing the blog.  But then that is how life rolls.  Did you write down what distracts you?  What causes you time after time again to fall into that distraction? What are your excuses for being distracted?  Those are lies.  They are not true.  They exist only to keep you confused; only to keep you running in circles like a dog chasing its tail. If you are chasing, you are not progressing. 

Your distraction can be a person, place or thing.  The sad part about it is while it can be a person, place, or thing, that is not the problem.  The problem is how you feel about it.  It is always about how you feel.  Let that saturate for a while.  So, begin jotting down how you feel about whatever it is. What pulls you in?  What is the lie that feed it?  Take your time.  You will be surprised.  Allow Holy Spirit to guide you in listening. enough for now.

The Pause is Over

So tell me, what causes you to pause?  You know, along your journey, as you go about your way, what stops you in your tracks?  No, let me ask another way.  What distracts you from your journey? 
Take time to think about it.

What are the lies and false beliefs that aid in your pause? The lies that have gotten you off track. Get still.  Allow Holy Spirit to guide you. Write the lies down as they are revealed.  Then ask Holy Spirit the truth for each lie, each thing you thought was true. You see, when you can hear the truth from Holy Spirit then you have something you can stand on against anything the enemy can say. It is time to get back on your way. This was just a pause, whatever your "this" is. It was just a distraction to get you off what God has for you. Come on, let's go. enough for now.

Shhh!

Do you know how hard it is to hear God clearly when you get distracted?  You hear the enemy whispering loudly. You hear self.  But you miss Holy Spirit.  It can happen so easily and there you go- on a different path.  When you recognize that you have gotten off- you can get back on.  Be still, get directions.  Life has so many detours, you must be clear if it is one you need to take, or if it is  a ploy to throw you off.  Shhh. . . listen. . . stop (cause sometimes you are on a roll and can't hear). . . and then follow.  Follow Holy Spirit's directions, not what people say. People will mess you up- I don't care who they are. They don't know your story, and since they did not create you, they can't give you proper directions.  Shhh. . . listen. enough for now.

Hands Up

Yes, I have my hands up. The national sign for surrender.  My hands are up; however, my palms are inward and upward, not outward facing you.  You see, I surrender only to God and the magnificent will on my life. Yes, everyone surrender- but know that only surrender to the Creator, the Alpha and Omega, should be your move. And then what do we do? Glad you asked.  Watch what God is doing in your life. It is indeed an awesome event, if you watch.  enough for now.

Sometimes, I Feel like a Motherless Child

It has come to this. The lies, the lies, the lies. The flagrant misuse of power. The dumbing down of those who are in charge to allow this bull to continue. No, it has been this. Oh but I know a God who sees all and who handles it. Yes, the times cry out "enough is enough." So many sad things are happening that need our attention, yet you go after innocent young Black men. Any fool in their right mind understands that any theft is not cause for killing- IF there was a theft at all. Yes, I deserve to walk in any public place. Please join me in prayer for realization, for safety and peace for our young men- that they are allowed to grow and live secure in this place they call home. That we agree -as vengeance belongs to God- He will repay. God in your "blessing of America" bless us to become a nation of lovers of you, and thus loving one another. enough for now

 

Happy Birthday Marq!

Today, 45 years ago, I gave birth to a baby boy. I marveled in wonder how God had blessed me.  And he grew in knowledge and statue. I marveled at how God had blessed him. And now he continues to learn, he continues to challenge himself in knowledge, in health, and in loving God.  I marvel at how God keeps on blessing me through him and my grandsons. Showers of blessings on this new leg of your journey Marq! enough for now.

Don't Get Distracted

Where has the time gone? There is so much going on; we must not get distracted. Yes, quite a bit of what is happening deserves our attention; moreover our prayer.  So please, give your attention where you can, check with Holy Spirit to get your direction.  There are so many things you can do, there are so many things you cannot do. Only Holy Spirit can direct you. Any when you get direction go for it!  You can go assured that Holy Spirit is indeed guiding you.  Blessings of joy and peace - through it all. enough for now.

Happy Father's Day

I waited to say, "Happy Father's Day."  Too often fathers do not hear that, and all too often, after that day nothing else is said.  Blessings of encouragement to the fathers and the mothers who were and are both mother and father. To those who labor and never hear, "thanks" or "I Love you."  You are indeed beloved by God.  Sometimes young people do not get what it takes to be a father and so they rebel.  Sometimes they don't know how to say, "I'm sorry," and they wallow in despair and/or guilt. 

The Prodigal Son in Luke 15 squandered his father's wealth, but not his father's love.  Sometimes we squander our Father's wealth, but never His love.  We can take note from that passage and turn back.  Children can take note from that passage and turn back.  They can't take note unless we teach them.  Fathers teach the children.  Fathers, teach the children. enough for now.

And then Rain

There was a great downpour as I left home.  And then it stopped. And then it started and then I drove out of it. Now there is a calm- no rain. Yes, a threat of rain,but no rain presently.  My umbrella is resting from keeping me dry.

There will times in your life that the downpour of trouble, pain, and heartache will flow.  And then it will stop. Or you will grow out of it. Even in the times of great downpours remember, they do not last always.  And even with the threat of downpour your umbrella will keep you dry.  

Can I go on? Holy Spirit will guide you though the storms - oh you know that.  Then apply it.  Why do you get so caught up with what may happen?  It may not happen the way you think.  No, it never happens the way you think.  With the Word implanted  in your heart and Holy Spirit guiding you are indeed covered.  

Funny thing about rain - it is needed and usually washes away stuff.  Your downpours may be ways of washing away your stupid stuff.  Don't know, but I do know who does know.  Please don't waste another minute of "what if"? Not if you accept Divine guidance.  Go ahead, try it. enough for now.

All Things

How many times do I hear that I am not as young as I was?  I realize that I am not; however, God is.  And as long as God is still in control- then I am- and can indeed do all things through Him that strengthens me.

Blessings of peace as you move in realization of the awesome power of God. enough for now.

Watch More

Watch what God is doing in your life.  I can not say it enough.  There are so many things happening and you really do not want to miss them.  It's the 'all things' plan of God.  Go ahead, try it.  Oh you will be surprised.  enough for now.

Cherish the Day

Today I recognized something.  Close friends and school friends that I had when I was young have been reconnected through Facebook. Distant family members that I am not as close to have been reconnected through Facebook. This is not a advertisement.  The song rings true: Make new friends but keep thee old. One is silver and the other gold.  

Social media has expanded our circles and we share with others where they are, pray for their pain, rejoice in their celebration.  You really don't know who you will connect again on your journey.  Cherish each person as one of significance.  You see, even the pain bringer, the lier, the one that causes you great hurt - yes, you can learn from all of them. Lament the hurt, grieve the loss and continue on. Let it go!  Life really is too short to hold on to the stupid stuff that we hold dear.  Not sure what to do?  Check with Holy Spirit.  There is so much more for you in your life. Cherish each day. enough for now.

Make a Stand.

Why is it so hard to stand up for what you believe?  Hmm could it be that you are not sure just what you believe?  At what point do you risk it all to say "no more" "not today" "not again"?   What is your ground?  You need to know and then you need to make above at that point. If you do not, then someone, something, some event,  some person, place or thing will take your ground and you have nothing to stand on.  

So how do you start?  Start by kneeling on your ground, get instructions from Holy Spirit. And then stand.  And as you stand you will make a statement.  Did you see it?  When you are clear on what you are standing on and why you are standing then you will make strong moves.

Oh my goodness yes! Bring our daughters back! But then I cried that when Infirst heard it- three weeks ago. Yes, bring them back.  

But more than that - take your life back! Back from fear, doubt,guilt, worry.  Make a stand now. enough for now.

Run

Oh how easily we can become distracted.  Yes, we have just celebrated the resurrection.  I found it difficult as too many places are too busy pushing their agenda and have forgotten about the agenda of our risen Lord.  What is happening?  Why are we so caught up in having gifts and are missing our gift? Why are we so focused on what others are doing and we lose our path?  Why can we not celebrate the journey of Jesus which has secured our journey?  Why?  

We have become too distracted.  We have begun to believe our own hype, and I guarantee that will not take us too far. Can we please call out for help?  Can we please recognize that we are lost?  We need help now.  Too many lies, too much deceit, too little respect for the things of God.  Look at you!  No, don't look at anyone else, look at self.  Ask, "is it me?" not "what is she talking about?"  

So you have made it through your fasting.  Now what? Are you any better?  Have you become more contemplative?  Are you walking closer with God?  Come on.  That is what it is about.  Don't stop now.   Run . . .run to follow Him . . .run to get that closer walk . . .run to let yourself to be wooed by God's love for you.  Oh He loves you, that is why Jesus accomplished his mission.  Let us walk together to see where our journey takes us. We can walk assured that we are not alone.  enough for now.

There is a Difference.

I find it intriguingly sad how when we are at times bombarded by the enemy, we miss the attack.  Of course, this is for those who can understand that spiritual fact.  The sad part is that we don't recognize the attack soon enough and we that we don't reach out to another in community.  You see, the enemy loves it when we isolate (to lick our wounds).  Yes, there is a difference between isolating and retreating to the embrace of God.  There is a difference.  We must be clear what we are doing.  We must clear who the enemy is.

(This is not about the news, but since I got it, I will give it). The news and media will help spin a tale that takes you where they want you to go; that is their job.  You must be clear of what is real, and what is not. Learn to ask the real questions.  Learn to hear Holy Spirit's guidance. That is where you will receive real answers to your real questions. There is a difference. 

Be clear of the deceit of the enemy.  Be clear that the enemy is not your sister, your brother.  Oh we must hear clearly Holy Spirit and be mindful that it is not our voice nor the voice of deceit.  There is a difference.  Even in the midst of a turmoil event or even in a warning that may be unnerving we find peace with Holy Spirit.  With that lying spirit we are spun into the turmoil with the mess.  There is a difference.  Today, watch what God is doing. enough for now.

You can Change

Have you ever consented to something and found out that it was not what you wanted to spend time doing?  What did you do with it?  I consented to receiving an email blog from someone I once knew when in high school.  I am finding that it comes too much and the views are not my views. 

There comes a time when you have to be clear of the why you do a thing.  In this case - it was to support.  But my support is not giving me a contented feeling.  So I shall stop receiving the email.

That was fairly simple- but how many times do we continue along a path that we are not comfortable- all because we are trying to support?  It is not a path that Holy Spirit has guided you on but a path of people pleasing?  You do not have to continue.  Get clarity from Holy Spirit and then follow that path.  Let the other junk go.  Take a new deep breath. enough for now.

God Still Is

My goodness.  There is so much going on with so many believers.  So many decisions to be made, so many 'what ifs'.  I have heard so many sad stories that make no sense, all in a short time. People are hurting- in physical and emotional pain.  Now that is not normal; so I'm thinking that the enemy has stepped up the attack, as so many believers in this season of Lent are partaking in spiritual disciplines of abstinence or engagement.  The thing about it- is that we are doing it together and that causes concern for the enemy.  Hang in there. Do not be confused or distracted.  Stay focused and in prayer as God Still Is- God is still in charge, still merciful, still protecting; still all knowing, still all seeing, still everywhere at the same time, still loving you.  God is still all of that and more!

That is enough right there.  God is still so much more than anything the enemy can do.  And you are still in God's care.  If you feel weak, then be carried.  If you feel sad, then be encouraged.  If you feel confused, then listen.  Oh I bless you with from Holy Spirit.  I silence the voice of the enemy.  I silence your voice.  If you need to grieve- do so, and then let God have it.  Hold on, stay focused, and watch what God is doing.  Blessings of peace! enough for now.

It has Begun

Yesterday marked the first day of Lent.  I encourage you to join me by walking this time in closer contemplation of the journey that Jesus took - for us.  Yes, I encourage either a spiritual discipline of abstinence or engagement if it takes you closer to a place of preparation, prayer, and discipline. Blessings as you become more aware of who you are. enough for now.

A Beautiful Blessing

I had a beautiful blessing the other day.  I was not feeling well and had to do some writing.  (who lives in another state) did not know this but texted me to bless me with a day of productivity.  Now I do understand the power in the blessing.  It is a divine power that we have been given.  And I constantly bless others with what I hear from Holy Spirit; yet I do not receive many blessings. Well not in the same vein; this is not a complaint, but an observation. My blessings abound from other ways.  You know God has no limits.  So, when my son blessed me, I felt empowered to finish what I was working on.

I encourage you to listen to Holy Spirit and when He places someone on your heart to pronounce a blessing - do so.  Spend time with Ephesians 2:6.  enough for now.

"Live on Purpose"

Yes, so much is going on. Yes, people have lost their mind.  Yes, it does not make sense.  Yes, there is something we can do. Yes, you have it in you.  But first - what is going on with you?  Where is your heart? your focus?  That will determine how you act, react.  Let's just start with you. 

Allow yourself to be whom you have already been created. I said it like that on purpose.  God has already shaped you, blessed you with gifts and talents, and given you a straight line to the heart of God.  That is how much you are loved.  When you recognize that, you can walk in that amid all types of craziness.  Carolyn Knight says so often, "Live on Purpose."  I agree as that purpose is yours and yours alone.  Walk into it.  Watch what God is doing in your life. enough for now.

Hold on to it- Real Love

See how quickly we move past a date?  Valentines is over and the love is gone.  Don't you want something more substantial?  more secure?  I do.  I want more than a "valentine love" when men in many places greets with "happy valentine," or "happy mother's day."  Why can't they greet that sentiment all year?  No, not just the words, but the sentiment - from the heart.  Why can't we do the same?  We can, the love does not come from a commercial day- but from an overflow of God's love for us.  Let's try it.  Start now, as we move into this Lenten season.  Receive God's love and then allow it to overflow to another. 

While in India the people that I connect with greeted me with "Namaste." All I could get out was a nod and hello. I was back at home before I realized just what that greeting meant.  "I bow to the divine in you."  My my.  People greeting me with "Namaste."  It didn't matter where I was from.  Did you hear it? Here, at home, we don't even greet some people who do not look like, act like, dress like we do.  You know I'm right. But to recognize God's creation of another human, oh my goodness.  Let's do it. I believe when you get it in you spirit you can be sincere. To get that is you spirit, you must recognize who you are as God's beloved.  Let that be your season- a season of recognizing you- of God's love for you.  That love is without bounds and cannot be dated.  It is always new!  And then let that love overflow.  Namaste. enough for now.

Bigger than a Day

Happy Valentine's day!  Okay, let me say it another way. Happy love day.  Happy acknowledging love day.  Hmmm.  Let me try again- you see acknowledging love should never be reduced to one day.  That's the commercial part.  You should love everyday.  You can feel love everyday.  Love is bigger than a day.

Love is so much more than a day.  You have a role model for ultimate love- Jesus.  You are loved.  Yes you are.  Sometimes you may feel no love from another, but get still, invite Jesus.  Allow Holy Spirit to guide you to that place of peace.  Feel that awesome love.  You are indeed God's Beloved.  You are so special, everyday.  Feel that precious space of who you really are.  Enjoy love everyday! Loving you.  enough for now.

Junk Out

You know, the more I learn about others, the more I resolve about self.  Too often, we hold on to stuff that absolutely has no value to us or in our lives. Yes we do. We fill our minds with too much junk. There is so much more to what God has for us, yet our own wounding can deter us. 

Junk can cause emotional upheaval and you can't pinpoint the source.  And sometimes when you attempt to pinpoint the source you find yourself on a rabbit trail - distracted. I challenge you to join me in letting go of junk.  Before you let go, you must recognize the difference between the junk and usable information.  Enjoy the release of your junk.  enough for now.

Release the Lie

Our parents taught my sister and me that in lying you must remember the lie you told in order to tell it the same way again- so don't lie.  And that is how we grew up.  It is so much easier to tell truth, even when it hurts.  At least your memory is clear for other things.

So, why do people lie?  What good does it serve them? It hurts others, and it hurts them.  In the end they only lie to themselves.  I don't know.  I am always amazed at believers, especially leaders, who wonder how everything seems to "happen" to them.  And yes, it may be spiritual, but it may be just you in your mess.  It could be that your lying has so disturbed your life.  It may be that you have lied to the wrong one.  Yes, that's true. 

Lying takes a lot of unnecessary energy.  You could be using the time for contemplation of how good God is to you. You could be sharing God's love instead of distorting what it looks like. 

Take some time today and examine "why the lies?"  Examine the source of your need to lie.  What is it that floods your heart?  Check in with Holy Spirit.  Ask what are the lies you have told or that you believe yourself.  Take at a time.  The first lie that Holy Spirit tells you.  Look at the pain that lie has cost you.  If you are ready to live free from it then renounce the lie and any demonization it has caused.  Proclaim your freedom from that one lie.  Go ahead- try it. enough for now.

Check Self

I have been around a few people lately who are not true to their word.  Just a few, yet, it is pathetic.  I don't know how else to say it.  So what is my position?  Oh back in the day I would call someone out. But I've grown so much so, I don't do that anymore.  It I not necessary.  I find that God can handle those people and their lies to me, on me, about me, quicker than anything I could do. 

There is something I can do.  Keep myself in check to make sure I do not do the same.  It is about growth.  I think we should check self to see where we are.  We check self by lining self up with our standard.  And we do it as we are guided by Holy Spirit. There is so much that we can't do it all at once.  enough for now.

The Weather Ain't Nothing

Okay, the weather is very different from what we are accustomed.  It is crazy as I listen to the warnings on the news to take care.  They are giving precautions that knew from living in Detroit.  And still in the DC area people don't know what to do.

Here is the crazy part.  People are tripping on the weather (and well they should) yet no one is tripping on the spiritual quality of their life.  Why is that?  Why is it that no one appears to be concerned that they are getting frostbitten by the needless emotional upheaval in their life.  They are suffering from hypothermia from the lies and false beliefs.   No one seems to want guidance from Holy Spirit through the sub zero blizzards they are facing.

Come on.  Can we really talk?  Life is so important and we really cannot afford to lose another day being uninformed, uncommitted.  Take time to get reconnected with you.  Watch what God is doing in your life.  enough for now.

Go Ahead

Take it- go ahead - step out in TODAY!  Step out expecting grand things.  Just today, watch what God is doing. Take it one day at a time.  Don't worry about tomorrow, just enjoy every aspect of what God has today.  Every ditch you come to, see what is there.  Every hill you approach, see if it is yours to climb.  Every sad tear, happy tear thank Him for the ability to tear.  Step out! enough for now.

New Day

Yes, it snowed.  And it covered everything!  And then there were footprints in the snow.  And then the wind blew them all away.  Wow! The snow reminds me of God's love for us, how His love covers a multitude of sin.  And even when we clown, we get a fresh start everyday. 

Your day.  TODAY. A new day.  Do big this day.  Your big can be as simple as spending time in commune with God.  That is both simple and big.  Your day- TODAY! enough for now.

Try Different

What?  What have you lied to yourself about so far this year?   No, you probably won't exercise more, although you need to do so.  No you probably won't reach out better to others, although you should. No . . . no . . . Whatever the lie is, let's try something different, this time.  Take one day at a time.

Yeah, it is harder, but when you realize that you only live life a day at a time you can do it.  How? Glad you ask (as F.G. Sampson used to say).  Please lean in and listen.  Shhh, hear me.  Allow yourself to receive guidance from Holy Spirit.  You can do it.  You see, when you realize that you are created in God's image and that you are already wonderfully made. . . When you understand that your body is a temple, and you are the caretaker. . . When you know just how special you are, then you can Holy Spirit's  guide for a more complete you. 

Yes, today, honor God with your life, not just your mouth. Follow Holy Spirit's guide for you.  Soak in the love that Jesus has for you.  You are special, you are His Beloved.  Walk in that!  This is the new leg of your journey. One day at a time.  enough for now.